We're still here: How the residential school system affected my family

Indigenous children taken out of homes in the name of "eating the Indians in the boy" have been housed for years at Lockwood School in Cartwright.

At last, it is no longer standing.

My nan, Ann Noseworthy said when I shared the news with her Tuesday afternoon "Good riddance, could have been broken down long ago."

We were still seated on the sofa and I asked her how it was.

I had an inkling; at Lockwood School she referred as a nightmare to her for seven years.

She told me about food bugs, violence, her family getting picked up at the age about seven in Dotted Isles, and more.

She set her iPad down and said, "I don't want to speak about it, Oh Tyler."

"All right," I said — and that's that.

To help me understand, Nan didn't have to remind me.

On the sofa I noticed it. I noticed it.

She took her toll for seven years in Lockwood.

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It's a battle for fear and depression every day.

Good and poor days are now, mostly good.

However, amid all, she can always grin and laugh at my sadness and constant pain.

Yet still, even after all those years, this anger and pain emerges.

My heart would never fail.

Silence pain

The descendants of the residential school from both sides of my kin.

Nan Ann Noseworthy and her siblings are on my mother's line.

My grandma Mary Mugford is on my dad's line.

In 2008, when I was around 9 years old, Nan Mugford passed away, so that her memories are uncanny.

I have a calm lady who has stayed by herself.

She stood by the TV, still enjoying her grazing.

I still felt she seemed grumpy.

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I was once told that she should hang onto me, her own grandson, was in admiration of Nan Mugford.

Thinking back, I understand why she seemed uncomfortable — she went to Yale School on the Northwest River, considered Newfoundland and Labrador 's hardest residential school.

In a dismal disaster as she was stuck in a location that was foreign to her, she lost her mother and two daughters.

She did not ever discuss her experiences or how she felt with anyone, either her good friends or her baby.

God knows what she's seen or heard, but she has managed to press on.

One of the pages of the oppressive history of Canada is the residential school system and many Canadians do not know anything about it.

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Please also take the moment to hear what we've gone through, what we're all learning.

You will come to realize that we are still here amid everything.

It is a testament to my grandmothers.

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